My Struggles as an Artist

my struggles as an artistI want to start off by saying that with any passion, any endeavor, or in any career field, there will always be trials and tribulations. I would also like to say that any of those obstacles can be overcome.

My struggles as an artist is much more than a creative block — it is an overall combination of factors like my personality, my work ethic, the confidence I have within myself … the list goes on. There have been many times where I’ve lost faith in myself as an artist and creator. I felt (and still feel) like I don’t fit in. There have been many instances where I’ve watched my progress, but succumbed to my woes because I wasn’t reaching the peak of success like everyone else.

I have this thing for comparing. Just like every other individual, I got sucked into the black hole that is the social media image. I was so caught up in the idea of what perfection was, that I had to learn that it doesn’t exist.

The Realization

During that time, I had to take a step back and realize the bigger picture. I reached out to God, and asked Him to reveal my path and take me on a journey to discover my purpose. In the midst of all that, I continued to focus on school, where I honed my craft and became better at “the basics” (which are the foundation courses for aspiring artists). I became better at drawing, color application, digital media, and 3D design. It was because of this journey and semester of intense growth, that I discovered my style as an artist.

In my drawing class, during our critiques we had many conversations about our processes. We compared, contrasted, and evaluated each other on our similarities and differences, and used those to reflect on our style. That entire process taught me that being the oddball isn’t such a bad thing after all. Having your own style sets you apart, and it’s what, in my opinion, heightens your self value.



  1. Brigitta Jesica
    May 11, 2018 / 2:59 PM

    Awww please don’t feel bad, you’re not an oddball, you’re just unique! and that’s what makes special people different 🙂 I tend to compare myself to others as well but it brings me nothing, learning to stop that habit x

    • suhrell
      May 14, 2018 / 11:12 AM

      I’m learning that as well. Comparison is the thief of joy and we all deserve happiness!

  2. May 14, 2018 / 9:52 AM

    Oddball??? Noooooo, most def not. You’re unique & different, which makes you a phenomenal woman and i’m proud of you. the fact is there’s no one like you and no one who can be you. It’s always better to be different than to be the same as everyone else…. keep up the great work & take your time plus embrace every moment.

    Stacey ❤️

    • suhrell
      May 14, 2018 / 11:15 AM

      This warms my heart! it feels good to know that being different isn’t such a bad thing after all. Love ya!

  3. Kettrin
    May 14, 2018 / 11:29 AM

    I see you and your creativity everytime I log on IG. You are such a light 💛

    • suhrell
      May 14, 2018 / 12:27 PM

      Thank you so much! I really appreciate you.

  4. Diane
    June 21, 2018 / 10:18 PM

    You are one of my GREATEST loves and there’s NOTHING odd about you. Your differences are your UNIQUENESS and they create a PERFECT SUHRELL❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • suhrell
      June 21, 2018 / 10:36 PM

      Thank you so much! This is very encouraging and helpful to keep me going. I love you!

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